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Family, who needs it by 9pudge9, literature

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Family, who needs it

Your hate Your lies Your looks Your crooked smile Things I'll never miss Thing I can do without You make me feel like dirt You make me feel like I shouldn't be alive You make me feel degraded You make me feel insignificant You use to be family You use to be loved You use to be my idol You use to be I can't believe you did this My heart was yours You destroyed me painfully slow And even then I still looked up to you Your known as dad Your known as sister Your known as brother Your known as killer Thats what your best at Thats all you did to me I'm never going to love you I'm never going to believe you again Family who

Voyage In The Fog by 9pudge9, literature

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Voyage In The Fog

Sailing on the seas of life No land to place under my feet Waiting, looking, seeking for it This place called refuge This place called home Fog surrounding Never clearing My hope is drowning Then I feel your hands I hear the songs of the lost Calling out for something real Something sturdy to call home A place where they won't feel alone Fog surrounding Never clearing My hope is drowning Then I feel your hands On my knees Pouring out my heart Head on the floor Fist pounding the deck Fog surrounding Never clearing My hope is drowning Then I feel your hands Its You I hear A gentle voice Which lifts me up And wipes my

Claustrophobe Awareness by 9pudge9, literature

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Claustrophobe Awareness

I'm feeling closed in I Can't seem to move Darkness holds me tight I Can only see a tiny light I call on Your name But I don't hear Your voice You're my break through My only hope Why can't I see you? It's You I trust I know You're around I'm told it every day So why do I doubt it? Why don't I believe it? I call on Your name But I don't hear Your voice You're my break through My only hope Why can't I see you? It's You I trust It's when I stop trying When I stop holding on to what I do I'm Giving You the control To step in I call on Your name And Your arms wrap around me I feel Your warmth I feel Your touch I hear Y

Slippery Mouth by 9pudge9, literature

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Slippery Mouth

Why my tongue does it I'm not sure Why my mouth lets it is an even bigger mystery But thats no excuse Lies and pain run out of my mouth like a sea of condemnation Condemnation that slithers around and injects venom into its prey The venom courses through their veins and into their hear With every passing second their walls of emotion are weakened Their will because almost none existent As I watch this happen to them I look at my self in disgust I see my self no better than roadkill just tossed aside My own tongue and mouth killing people And letting condemnation infect them and myself both at once Then something wonderful happens

Running with scissors by 9pudge9, literature

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Running with scissors

I don't know why but I feel like I'm always running with scissors Always running full tilt but making sure to have everything in line instead of being fun Fun... Something I haven't had in awhile Something I long for Something that sounds so freeing Fun... Hmm I wonder if someone will take these scissors from me So I can run like a child So I can be as free as a bird So I can... live Life is something that needs boundaries but not scissor boundaries Scissor boundaries are what parents set to not get hurt Not to suck life out of you Scissor boundaries... Just hold them upside-down

too many times by 9pudge9, literature

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too many times

With things that happen to fly by I never really noticed That when you see your heart in someone else' hands Your world becomes theirs Attaching strings that make you move as they wish Implanting feelings that you can never forget Marking it up like its just a game When they're done They either keep it forever or throw it away If they keep it, they never keep you unless your lucky And if they throw it away, it looks even worse Who will take this unrecognizable thing This thing that is my mind, will, and emotions Who will want to hold it and clean it Tend to the beating it took so much My eyes are opened looking for you My ears

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Family, who needs it by 9pudge9, literature

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Claustrophobe Awareness by 9pudge9, literature

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Claustrophobe Awareness

Slippery Mouth by 9pudge9, literature

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Slippery Mouth

Running with scissors by 9pudge9, literature

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Running with scissors

too many times by 9pudge9, literature

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too many times

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9pudge9

Mar 11, 2010

Love is just a verb

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So sorry everyone who likes Chapter 13 but i have to take it down do some editing and have it my own. Taking out a few characters and adding in some Taking out some events and writing new ones And instead of the title being Chapter 13 its going to be Faits Of Sin So I think its going to be amazing and totally rad... and it's only going to be done by me Ziggi Sloth (Yes I know its the character name of one of the characters but its my alter-ego name and I wanted to be in the story some how) Love you all Peace out Ziggi Sloth

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Feb 27, 2010

Soo today...

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So today is an awesome day, heres what happened... - No classes - Free haircut - Hamburgers for Lunch - Got to act like a fool with some friends - 15 cups of coffee - Drew some pictures - FOUND MY TATTOO I WAS GOING TO GET IN MEMORIAL TO MATT - Got to color - Got to ink some of my drawings (just need to find a damn scanner) - Sweet ass left overs - The fridges are totally organized - Got totally awesome compliments on my outfit and hair - Had an indepth conversations with a friend about Grace (it was soooo sweet) - Coffee shop open mic night (read a poem) Today was totally sweet. loved it and wish it never ends but it will and

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Feb 18, 2010

Redo Life

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So there is A LOT of things that have happened since my last journal entry... Sorry I haven't been updating it like every week or what not. So last time I talked to you guys was what like last year around May 13th sorry, but heres for some news... Summer was amazing, well not really. Got kicked out of my house and was living on the streets trying to just live while keeping up an appearance of not homelessness. I was selling and doing street work and street paintings (which i couldn't get pictures of) just to make money but it wasn't to live it was more for... ah... partying lol. Anyways so then I went to my dad and found out he sent in an ap